I’ve written about this before but I really do love the start of a new year. The magic of possibility is so seductive. It’s a clean slate and anything can happen. For me, the last few years have started out with a strong determination to make those things happen, to get to the next level, to challenge myself.
This year feels different somehow. I believe all that determination has finally paid off. I find myself at the start of this year feeling like I am in a place that fits me like a wonderful old worn-in shoe. I feel content and cozy.
Don’t get me wrong, the year has still started off with a bang. Moving into my new studio seems to have shifted the energy and things are really rolling for me at the moment. I have two large commissioned paintings I’m working on, I have sold a few paintings that are ready to ship out, I am writing the agenda for my upcoming workshop and I’m about to begin preparing for the online workshop I will be teaching with 20 other art journaling teachers called 21 Secrets.
So things aren’t necessarily calm. But strangely enough, I feel calm. This all just feels like… yes. Yes, this is the life I was hoping to create. Yes, this is the reality I was working so hard for. An art career, teaching workshops, painting and a studio to do it all in. Plus, a wonderful family and fantastically deep friendships. I feel… grateful. Busy and grateful.
So the start of this new year finds me in a bit of a different place. I don’t feel restless, I feel content. I almost don’t recognize myself.
I am not focused on what I don’t have and what I hope to be, I am focused on what I do have and who I am. And wow, that feels remarkable.
I read this quote the other day by Zora Neale Hurston, “There are years that ask questions and years that answer.”
I feel like after so many “question” years I am finally in an “answer” year. I am ready to be present, to live, to work, to love. Cheers to 2014.